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What should I said?

Somehow I feel so bad, I was just wish to dedicated you an eCard fill with your friends sign and wishes to you. But he does not like it.

Indeed, you are appreciate. But what I did was actually sound dumb for you right? Because people has know that eCard not gonna be succeed, your friends not going to sign. On the other hand, one of your friend was asking you what is that and I guess it make you more uncomfortable and feeling shame on me doing this kind of silly stuff on you.

For a year long you have been keep telling me that if you are doing this this this and that that that I am sure I will be leaving you one day... So you are actually just wish to leave me? If you so dislike me why were you still here? When people asking you were defended you are not, but why are you each time reminding me that you will be leaving me?

You use to doubt on me that how many guys I have go with, questioning me that how many guys I have approach... ...and many many more~
People will say, why don't you start leave him 1st. Well, I know that. I wish I can leave, perhaps I am still not strong enough to leave him, somehow I just like him very much till I was surprising that actually I was love him very much...

What happen to me? Why should I choose him instead of I am actually have a lot admire lining up for me?

FYI, I am tired of your question and doubting about me and other guys, I was clarified so many times that who I am but you were just not believe that is the thing I cant control.

I AM TIRED~ But somehow I have no guts to stop this... ... v. v

Please show me the guide and give me the strength. .. ..